Death of the Backdrop

(For Melissa)

I've been hiding so long, behind a mask made of rage!
But it only obscures, the cold steel bars of my cage!
I don't know if you care; don't fucking care if you know!
It's cutting toodeep, but I'll, never let this go-o-o!

You flattered me, with your, prese-e-e-e-e-ence!
Shed light on this empty, exista-a-a-ance!
Wish I could hold on, to all the things that you sa-a-aid!
But these medications, they make me forge-e-et
And I don't want you, out of my head.

Loving you's pointless, I'm so damn unprepared!
And I'm way too fucked up, to admit that I'm scared!
So many adore you, but none of them see.
Just how fucking much, that you mean to me-e-e!

You rescued me, with your prese-e-e-e-e-ence!
You bathed light on this empty, exista-a-ance!
I wish I could on, to everything that you sa-a-aid!
But these medications, they make me forge-e-et.
And I don't want you, out of my head.

I would die just to tell you.
This ain't all I am.
Can't you ignore all the voices,
That tear me to shreds.
For a moment see the man, with his head on his kneees.
Just a dying backdrop, whose completed his scene.
Wishing with everything, that you'd see straight through me.
I'd kiss your lips if you let me-e-e;
Now I'll turn and leave if you want.
I may fade away, but I'll never forget.
Won't ever blame you, if you don't comprehend.
What I wrote was true.
I meant what I said.

So come rescue me, with your prese-e-e-e-ence!
Shed light on my empty, exista-a-ance!
Whisper to me, everything that you sa-a-aid!
Before these medications, leave any more truths wasted!
I don't ever want you, out of my head.