I stood in my room with a cold knife against my wrist. Felix is dead. Cut! Jed's an ass. Cut! And now Merry. Cut!

I couldn't believe it, why did everyone who ever cared about me have to leave. They all dead, Felix and Merry are dead and my mom's soul is dead. Cut!

I put my bloody knife down and wrapped a bandage around my wrist. My life sucked. I was getting dizzy so I laid on my bed and fell asleep.

The next day I went to school, although I felt so sick from Merry's death. I walked into my gym class, I hardly ever changed, and I didn't change that day. I sat with my friend Jarred, "Wow, I can't believe Merry is dead, wait, where are we going to get our supply from?"

"Hello, I supply her, plus my mom's a dealer," I reminded him.

"Yeah well, I just miss Merry so much. Merry never had an overdose that much, and she's smarter than that," he looked at me, "Maybe her supplier killed her," he suggested.

"What do you mean?"

"You killed her!" He snapped, "Your stuff had to be laced! Listen here Tamesis, by my hand you'll die." He got up and walked to the other side of the bleachers. The school police officer walked into the gym. I knew him very well; I got in trouble a lot.

"GET OVER HERE!" he yelled at me.

"Me?" I asked.

"YES!" I walked down the bleachers, I didn't remember doing anything against school rules recently.

"What'd I do?" I asked him, I know I sounded scared. He just turned me around and put a cold pair of cuffs on both of my writs and walked me out of the school. He shoved me into a police car where another cop brought me down to the station.

The guy led me inside and took the metal cuffs off my wrist, then put me into a cell. I was caged like an animal behind cold steel bars.

"Oh my god," Kern hugged Tamesis and held him close. He just continued his story.

"They found my mom's drugs in the house, but she and Jed were clean. We were going into debt and they was working so hard she had no time for drugs. They said the drugs were mine, and after administrating a drug test, which came out positive, the courts sent me to rehab. I haven't used since."

By this time Tamesis' eyes were lifeless. Kern kissed him, "I'm just glad that you're clean now."

He pulled up his sleeve showing his scars, "I don't cut anymore either, but that all stopped when I met you," he kissed her and finally he released tears, "Kern, I love you," he choked out with tears in his eyes.

"I love you too," she said and kissed him back, "Wow, you past is so…dark and painful," she said without knowing that the next couple years of her future would end up just the same.