H A P P I N E S S

♥♥♥

& it comes in like a flood over me
wherever I was a minute ago
--I don't know
but I know where I am now

& it's like a comedic tumble I fall
if they laugh I don't care at all
after all
this is where I want to be

& there I am at the top of the world
someone come and stop this girl
it won't work
since she has more than herself

& then when I wake and when I rest
always I'm at my very best
perfect test
wonder how I beat the rest

& how did I go from dying to fighting
for life and liberty and justifying
--I don't know
but I know who I am now

& sure I wound up screaming a lot
and whatever I said it meant squat
just because
it wasn't aimed toward you

& it's like everyday is so beautiful
and each breath I take is worth it
deserve it
since at least you have earned it

& there's nothing like glorious morning
that shows us where we were heading
I lost me
somehow you helped me find me

& it comes like a flood over me
wherever I was a minute ago
--I don't know
but I know where I am now

& you say all the right things
even when I deny them effortlessly
you still do
you do manage to pull through

& they say that I'm so much happier
and I seem far more like a girl
whatever
they witness your endeavor

& your smile is imprinted in my mind
who's to care and I don't mind
it's alright
this has to be all your might

& sometimes I wonder why you did it
why you decided to stand and fight it
--I don't know
but I know that you have won

& all I can see are pieces of you
layered on reality I slowly come to
so are you
how do you know what is true

& there's noise like a million popping balloons
screaming in dark nights without gloom
how are you
do you see impending doom

& no one can replace her as the thorn in my side
but you have accepted me all-encompassing
you unreal
man of arms whom owns my mind

& it comes like a flood over me
wherever I was a minute ago
--I don't know
but I know where I am now