A hot bath to

Fall asleep and drown in, or a

Cold shower to

Wake myself up?

A hot bath; to scald away

The part of me that's still you

A cold shower; to numb myself…

Frost bite-bite the frost.

I bite the inside of my cheek

Till it bleeds-

I was never the decision-maker.

A hot bath to cry and steam and

Sleep and dream and drown in,

Or a cold shower to

Freeze and shiver and

Wake myself up?

Would it matter…?