(VERSE ONE)

I'm always worried about what I do

I don't want to mess up and let them down

I take a step then turn around

I don't know which ways up and which ways down

(Chorus)

I'm afraid to mess things up

I want to make things perfect

I want to make them proud

(VERSE TWO)

They look at me through judgmental eyes

Trying to understand what's going on inside me

I want to explain but they won't hear me out

They have their own ideas of who I should be

(Chorus)

I'm afraid to mess things up

I want to make things perfect

I want to make them proud

(VERSE THREE)

I feel like a robot, going through the motions

I read my Bible and do devotions

But I ask myself, do I really mean it?

Am I just pretending, trying to be who

They want me to be

(Chorus)

I'm afraid to mess things up

I want to make things perfect

I want to make them proud

(VERSE FOUR)

I'm always afraid I'll trip up

I'll miss a step in this endless dance

I go round and round

Running through an endless maze

Where I'm always pretending

(Chorus)

I'm afraid to mess things up

I want to make things perfect

I want to make them proud

(VERSE FIVE)

I want my voice to be heard

But all I am is a silent cry in the dark

I stumble in circles and try to explain

But it's too late and I've runaway

(VERSE SIX)

It has shattered, this world I'm in

I feel like a hamster caught on that wheel

I cry but it's in the dark where no one will hear

I'm afraid for them to see my pain

It wouldn't bring any gain


This song is dedicated to all the "Tristan's" out in the world!