I wish we still had love
As I toss these flowers on your grave
I think back to all the days
As a child when we would roll
Around in grandma's flower patch
And as I see the mourning colors
I think about the stones
That layed in peaceful slumberings
Under the great big pine, so silvery, shiny black
We would pick them up,
And throw them in the bird baths
See who could hit the most baskets
You were determined that an arm I WOULDN'T lack
And as I watch the dirt
Being thrown over your new bed
I think about the mud pies
That we would make in summer heat
We would run around the yard
Throwing them at one another
The rocks didn't seem to bother us
Even in our bare, unsocked, unshoed feet.
At that time I didn't think
That you would run away from me
From us really, I thought we were a family
Then I didn't think that your end you would meet
I linger at your grave,
somewhat longer than the rest
I shiver in the November wind, so frozen, icy cold
I remember all the times...
All the times at Christmas
Presents passed out, one by one
A family laughing happily
Rosy cheeks, and kisses and hugs
I remember sledding in the cold
You would pull me around the yard
And I would squeel with delight
...Back then our family still had love...
Back then you still had love...
But I'm jerked to reality
By the tears sliding down my cheeks
And I realize I am crying,
with the bittersweet memories
Really that's all I have left of you
Since you died so young
Is memories of the past when we were kids
I didn't even see you grow up
A rifle to your head,
ended that chance for us
For us to be a family again
...For our family to have love...
I wish we still had love...