and we lied and denied our real feelings
as we broke all the promises we swore we never made.
and you said We Can Still Be Friends
but I knew that this would be the bloody end…
i was moving far away and no one could save me
as I voluntarily disassociated myself from everything I knew was real –
just for one more opportunity for a future.
but I was lying (again) to myself.
i know that I can't make it to the end of the (black) rainbow –
the farther I chase it, the longer it grows.
and the more that it grows,
the more I realize that