A/N: This used to be a much harder song, with a kind of MCR sound to it in my head. As time went on though, things changed, and so did the song. Now, it's actually a depressing song, that yes, I guess you can call emo. I don't like to use that label to slap on a song just for the lyrics though. If anything it's just an alternative song about, well, suicide. Anyways, depressing as it is, I hope you guys can enjoy it.

Shotgun Therapy

Spend your money on perfection,
I'll purchase all this ammunition...
For this shotgun...
Pointed at my head.
This life makes me feel dead...
I deserve it's empty stare,
I hope you're still unaware.
I guess it's too late to fucking run...

All my, colors fade to black!
As I take myself back...
Is this what you call a life!?
Is this how you stay sane?
Living only to complain!
Do you know what I can't stand?
Those who think they've witnessed pain.

Spend my time on the completion...
Of my slow degeneration.
I'll blow these...
Thoughts out of my head!
I'll grant your wish that I were dead.
Only of my loss I'm thinking...
My darkness finally sinks in!
I'm unashamed of what I have become.

All my, colors fade to black!
Now I'll take myself back...
I won't live this twisted life!!
This tapestry of pain,
Shotgun shells instead of rain...
I don't think I can stand...
And I've only got myself to blame.

I broke down, these walls to see your face!!
Just to embrace... The fact that there's no way!
I close, my eyes they've seen too much!!
These hands break everything that they've touched!!
So I won't lie and say I care...
I love this shotgun's gaping stare.

So spend those nights on the cremation...
Of this one last resignation.
Forget every word that I said...

No hope. This treatment will cure me...
For your sake, I'll use shotgun therapy.