lucid delusion

last night lucid dreams
made blurry with
the drug trance-filled
impulse to lose myself

courage to tell the truth
as he looks at me
through my crazed
laughter exploding face

the drugs weren't speaking
but they guided the words
that fell on my lips
"i love you," i said

as my lips dug
under his bare skin
a hatchet found
& he reciprocated

in my lucid dream
but reality filled
the hole the high
left in my heart