Phone Call in Winter

Father called me todayI was asking myself whether or not
I felt any emotion
(for that matter)
Did I?
I was asking my heart
It didn't answer
Heart, do I feel?
No answer
For it was still denying truths
It went through too many traumas
Too many losses
Too much
It was confused with yes and no
Yes didn't come along much too often
And No,
Well it was much too familiar
It went more like a storm,
All rain,
No shine
For when my father called,
It was more like a winter's day
My heart was too numb
From the cold
From the Rain,
From the Snow,
From the Ice,
To know, what emotions were