Living in my own worst nightmare

I am consumed by Ana,

I crave for red marks on my arms,

I lie and lie and dig myself deeper into a black hole,

I put on an unreadable face

Though my eyes may give me away

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Living in my own worst nightmare

I never shed a tear,

I never lose control,

I never let anyone in,

I never trust anyone,

Not anymore.

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Living in my own worst nightmare

I am done with crying out for help,

I'm beyond help now,

No one can do anything.

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Living in my own worst nightmare

I am killing myself slowly,

Starvation and bleeding can only cause so much damage

Before it's all over.

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8/18/05