"The Ghost Of You"

"I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try"

Lying on my bed, waiting, hoping for her to call me. All things considered, right now I'd even take a telegram. Anything other than this deafening silence

"At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever..."

Why did I lie to her like that? Why couldn't I just tell her the truth? One little thing and I lied, like the coward I am. I grabbed the remote and turned on the TV.

"Ever get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies"

I stared in shock at the screen while some nameless reporter jabbered on about this woman who was going to jump off the bridge. That was her! I never though my lie would hurt her this much. I grabbed my coat and ran out the door.

"At the end of the world

Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me"

I ran, berating myself over the whole thing. Wondering how I could do something so stupid. Hoping I could get there in time. I stopped at the bottom of the bridge and looked up making sure she was still there. And headed for the stairs.

"If I fall
If I fall (down)"

I was to late! She jumped as soon as I hit the bottom of the stairs. I stood frozen in place. And then I exploded from where I was standing. Screaming the entire time. I heard her body hit the ground with the sickening thud of bones snapping in a million places. I knelt beside her and gathered her in my arms. Wishing that I could turn back time. Crying for everything I had lost.

"At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna..."

I lay in bed. Waiting for a ghost. Wishing I had never hurt her so she could be here beside me instead of the ghosts of my memories. Wondering why I couldn't tell the truth the one time it really mattered. Praying for something, anything to end my torment.

"At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home

Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever..."