I am the Pain

What do you see when you see my smile?

Do you see what everyone else sees?

A happy girl without a single care

In the world?

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My smile is a broken one.

Behind the dancing eyes

Lie the shards of shattered tears

Crystallized by pain,

Frustration,

Emotions

Misunderstood.

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I smile to hide,

To cover up what even I

Do not understand.

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I wish I did.

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I am demon possessed,

Consumed and controlled

By a darkness, a feeling

Deep within the pits of

My soul.

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It lingers where I cannot find it.

Controlling me until I waste away

Into nothing more

Than a feeling,

A thought.

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I am . . .

The pain.