Josh Dies (Scene III)
I'm seeing angels
I'm talking in my sleep
This constant vagabond
Reminds me of who I'd just been.
There's something wrong here;
I'm not invisible.
Destroying myself piece-for-piece
I'm digging a big hole.
It took so long for me to change my old self
Into a newer, saner version of the same old me.
It took a long time for the habits to break
So why am I feeling sick all over again?
I'm so afraid of the past left behind me
I can't believe I was so naïve.
There seems no answer
To the questions that I make.
Tells me what is to be my fate.
I'm not a monster, so I'm told
I'm not falling through a tidal wave
I want to live my life again
Not the one I lived back then!
Stop the crying, stop the hurt,
Wipe the puke off my shirt
From the alcohol, stop the whoring around.
To be a better person I must prove to myself
That I can be independent. Yet…