My Perfumed Sin

Thoughts kiss me

Deceive me

Betray me

Like Judas

But my own flesh

So I betray myself too

With my red lipstick

That no one recognizes as blood…

The marks on my body

Scars on my soul

Flesh betraying itself

Its blood

The thing keeping it alive

My skin tied with red knots and silver laces

All because of her…

Or maybe him…

But no one knows that

Those secrets

Hidden beneath the surface

All from past and present

Good and bad

Covered and open

Clothed in diamonds

Pearls

Riches

Beauty

Perfume

Ripped to pieces

Erased

Yet alive

My escape, my trap

My sin

Covered

Clothed

Beautiful

Horrible

Perfumed

With my entire life

It tickling me

Inside

And making me fear

And hide more

Disguising

Making me laugh with insecurity

And hide my scarlet pain

My past love, past life

The faint purple still on my flesh

In the form of scars…

Candy-coated

Dabbed in cover-up

And other blemish hiders

The blemishes of my soul

My heart

My mind

It was my sin

My love

My life

My death

My enemy

Yet my only friend

My perfumed sin