This door knob has been turned

You've seen the way this place has been trashed

Ruined

God, I know I promise to make it all about you

But I failed

And I was hiding this junk behind the door

My past lies

My past vile words

My past mistakes

When you opened the door they stirred up so much dust

And you found all the garbage,

That I was trying to spare your eyes from

You told me you'd love me no matter who I was

But I was hiding

I'm so sorry

I feel your eyes bore through

Just like my earthly parents

Every single time

I let them down

God, I wish you hadn't turn the door knob

I wish you could go back the other way

But without you in my heart

I wouldn't be alive today