RUNNING
A Poem By Jamie Thomas Durbin

Last night, I went to your party.
Happy Birthday.
I sat, and tried to enjoy.
I felt apart,
I felt alone,
I'm not one of you,
I know that now.

I saw you all together, chatting.
Happy faces.
I talked, and tried to join in.
It didn't work,
You all look blank.
I'm not one of you,
I know that now.

I saw you and him, holding,
dancing, chatting.
I looked away, and didn't want to see.
It hurt too much,
It broke my heart,
I couldn't stay,
I'm going now.

A friend asked me where I was,
I told him.
I'm hiding away, and not coming back.
I don't want this,
I can't hack it,
It's not my schtick,
So here I am.

And sitting here, writing my feelings,
You're all a group
And I intrude,
I don't belong
And never will.

So now I run.
So now I hide.
From all the pain
And past inside.