face down
that was my last night in the dust
it was my last night with flashbacks to the dark car,
the dark field
it was my last night of bitter tears from loneliness
soothing me to sleep
it was my last night b.l.e.e.d.i.n.g.
on the bathroom floor
it was the last night I saw the bottle
in the reflection of glass
it was the last night that I shivered
in the memories
it was the last night I woke up in a sweat
with nightmares that I didn't belong
((in this world at all))
it was the last night that I needed love
or fell for the first boy
((who sweet talked me into what he wanted))
it was the last night of longing
the last night needed my dreams
((just to get through the days))
it was the last night that I let
temptation get the best of me.
it was my last night of feeling alone
and being alone
it was my last night of hatred
of toxic loathe for myself and my oppressor
face down
it was my last night of living for myself
for.good.for.ever.
face down
was the last night of the past
the last night of judgment
the last night of suffering
((by.my.self.))
the last night of crying, bleeding
hurting ((without any help))
the last night that the devil would ever
control.my.life
face down
I surrendered.
and that was my last night
as.that.person