I'm tired of being the "perfect" friend. I'm exhausted from living up to the world's expectations of me. I'm sick of always having to care, and not once having someone ask me "How are you?". Everyone always expects sympathy from me, but they're less willing to give it. Granted, there are some friends I truly care for, and some that I could care less about them, because they don't give a hoot about me. No one seems to realize how disheartening it is to always care, and to rarely get a kind word in return. My parents, yes, but they're obligated to love me. I want someone to care about me. Not because they have to, but because they want to. Because they want to know how I really am.
I'm tired of this world's false image that leads everyone astray. I don't wear it or subscribe to it, but I see it everyday. I become friends with people because I'm concerned about them getting hurt, those are the friends that God has put on my heart to always care about, even if they profess to hate me, or to not want to be my friend anymore. I care for them because I want to, not because I have to.
Then there are the friends who take me for granted, the ones who seem to think I will always be there. They need a wake up call. These are the friends who make a promise, and then break it, or the friends who say one thing, and then do another. The ones that will even lie to my face, knowing I know the truth. Call it unChristian, but I hate friends like that. They destroy me inside, and they never do anything to fix it. They are the friends who don't care about me, and really only are using me because I can help them fix their problems, or because I have a car and can drive them around.
If you are one of my friends, and are reading this, wondering what category you're under, don't ask me. Take a good look at yourself and then tell me which category you fit under. Perhaps, if you find that you dislike what you've been sorted under, then change your behavior. If you don't want to change, well…sayonara. I won't put up with this any longer.