laryngitis crept through
my throat
it bubbled up to my lips
i wasn't able to croak a
word
without having it fumble along the vowels
silence was
sealing my lips shut
so much i needed to say inside
so little i
could do to get them out
i try to form genuine conclusions inside
of my heart
i try to make sense and it only falls back into my
mouth
down my throat, into the pit of my stomach
and my stomach
will ache for days
it grumbles and moans of wanting relief
i
need to speak
anger spread through my bones
it laced
through my muscles
but i wasn't able to move for days
i
couldn't lift my elbow to hold my head
as i tried to collect my
thoughts
and seperate them from my feelings
i'm trying to make
logic for you
so that you can understand
but the aggression is
building,
boiling in my blood
my veins pulse and it's getting
horrid
my body is sore and unable to creep to bed
to try to
escape the thought of you
to try to escape from you
hurt
forms in my heart
with every beat, it kicks a pain
it's yelling
at my body
and it shrieks for vengeance
calling your name, it
throbs in my eyes
they search for you, try to meet yours
so
that they could shoot daggers
straight from my pupils
into your
iris
to make them bleed green
hoping to wash away your
blindness
to help you to see
can you see me now?
can you see
me now?
can you see my pulsing
veins?
my throbbing, bulged eyes?
my hurting heart?
my sore
throat?
can
you
see
what
you're
doing
to
me?
i reach above to find my
voice
to yank the silence that's withheld my lips
i think
really hard to create my words into sentences
to try to make them
legiable
i pull my body together to move my legs
so i can walk
straight again
i punch my chest to stop the pain in my heart
so
that you can't hurt me anymore
and i softly tell my eyes
to
stick the daggers
back into their sockets
and save them
for
another
day...
i tell myself to save them
for when you
actually
deserve to meet
the revenge
i have in store
for
you
one day.