These mistakes

I've screwed up

But I'm sure I should be

More scared than I am

More worried than I am

You may call it denial

But what else can it be?

These mistakes were my fault but I don't care

I know I should care more, but my heart, it won't let me

Im training my head to think logically

And even though it's not impossible, i really think that its improbable

These chances I've had

Mean nothing

It's my life

Which includes

My screw-ups

And my own fuck ups

But I'll trip over my laces once or twice

I'll fall flat on my face with everyone staring

Ill make mistakes but i'm learning from them. i promise

so do mistakes matter?

and should i be ashamed of myself?