Relapse

Experience has taught me and love has told me

That I have cultivated an obsessive and addictive personality.

Yet through tears of blood and by the sweat of my soul

I have existed through nine years of depressing sobriety.

An almost decade of resisting the urge

To throw myself head first into the desires of my mind.

I complacenty sat through the many years of sanity

Only to turn to insanity and find

Life. Yes, this is my name and I am an alcoholic

I am the drugee with an addiction and quite the affinity

For you, the drop of liquor that I have been denied.

Embracing a relapse feels like God. I taste the trinity.

You, You and You.

I love you.

I can't help it.

I do.