In this moment.
In this moment I feel happy. I feel together. I feel whole. He is all consuming he is what I need. I wrap him all around me and descend into comfort. I can't understand for a second why he stays with me but I know that I need him. I am cold and lonely always shaking and sliding in and out of sanity and control but through all of it he loves me ad forgives me my mistakes, my insults, my bites. He kisses my lips, forehead, cheeks and makes me feel like I mean something. Like I'm a human. My opinion and my love matter to him. He needs me as much as I need him - but that was never made clear before. Now I know. Now I feel like I mean as much to him as he does to me. I have nothing but him to hold on to and I will never let go - never again.