Night Thoughts 19th February 2007

I must not ask

I must not feel

I must accept

Shut down my brain

Close my mouth

I must not write

Still my fingers

I'm shutting down

Shutting down

Pulling in

Try not to crash

Blue screen, flatline

Isolation blurs the lines

Between normality

And insanity

Insanity

Black hole

Dead of night

Whispering voices

Telling lies

I must not ask

I must not write

Does this mean

I must not love

I must not feel

I must not dream

I must accept

I must move on

Deny my heart?

Shutting down

Shutting in

Shutting out

Shutting the door

Shutting

Door closed

Door open

Heart closed

Heart open

Lonely pain, aching brain

Things might never be

The same again

Shutting down

It's over ..

Closing down

Closing in

The dark

The light

And all shades in between

Letting go

Letting go

Let go now

It's over ..