You said, "I love you,
But I just can't love you right."
And as I sit and hear the words, I know
I'm in for another sleepless night.
You said, "I care about you—
I always have; I always will."
And as the implications hit home,
My eyes begin to fill
With tears as you continue on:
"I mean, it feels so right with you;
But I don't think I could be strong.
If I'm not with you — I just can't last that long."
And I nod and I agree
Because I know that your words are true—
And then you say, "I'm sorry;
I know this isn't fair.
But you deserve someone better;
Someone who knows how to care
For you the way to deserve
To be cared for.
And, to be honest with you,
I'm not sure I know how to anymore.
I'm sorry, but I'm damaged," you say,
As though I don't know this all-too-well.
"I can't be what you need me to be," you add,
And my heart begins to swell
With emotions I burred long ago,
When I told myself I wouldn't
Keep allowing myself to go
Where we always used to go.
But somehow, for all my trying,
We always end up right back
In that same old place of—
And hearts beating
Out of pace.
It's a place I don't want to be in;
A situation I'd give anything to avoid.
A place where all of this confusion
Would just be null and void.
And then, your words come again:
"I love you, but you need to know
That I just can't be what you need;
No matter what you think,
No matter what you believe."
So I nod and say, "I understand,"
Even though I really don't.
I mean, how can you say
That you love me
And say that, in spite of the fact,
You still won't?