I was mad and hurt at the same time. I couldn't concentrate in my Music class because of what Kay told me. I was mad at myself for thinking Di had the same feelings for me. I was also mad at Di.
How could she have been so sweet? So deceiving?
I was mad at her for making me believe that there's something going on between the two of us. I was mad at her for telling me things that made me happy. I know I didn't have the right to get mad at her, I was just making up excuses to hide the fact that the person to blame was myself. I made my own fantasies and conclusions anyway.
Last period ended and I was supposed to send Di a text message to let her know. This had been a routine for the both of us since the first time we communicated. But I didn't send her a message. I saw her and had this same flutter in my stomach, but I told myself to stop with this nonsense already.
Di was around 50 feet away from me classroom and was holding her cell phone. I knew she was waiting for me. I made her see me and my unwillingness to text her on purpose. I spent the rest of the afternoon ignoring Di by making myself look bored to give her the sense that I would text her anytime, which I didn't.
I went home without giving Di a word from me. It was until after dinner when my phone suddenly beeped.
'Hey Amanda' It was obvious who it came from
'Hey you' I replied dryly
'What's up with you? You didn't text me after class. You weren't even busy.'
'Are you mad at me? What did I do to you?'
EVERYTHING. You gave me hope and took it away. You made my days. You were in my dreams. You made me want you. You made me fall for you. You made me believe there was something between the two of us. You have this power over me. You took my whole self with your words. UGH! We haven't even been with each other in person even for once and you made me this!
My phone rang a few seconds after I sent the message. Di was calling me and seeing her name flashing on my phone made me forget that I was supposed to ignore her.
"Is something wrong?" Di asked
"No, I'm perfectly fine. Thanks anyway."
"I don't believe you."
"Then don't, I don't care."
Di sighed on the other side of the line.
"Are you doing anything?" Di said after sighing
"I'm reading Harry Potter."
There was an awkward silence between the two of us. I turned the book to the other page loudly so she could hear the paper rustle. She didn't say anything for the next couple of minutes so I got impatient and started reading her lines from the book.
"...the next thing he knew, everything went black; he was being pressed very hard from all directions; he could not breathe, there were iron bands tightening around his chest;"
I was practically screaming on the phone. My voice was loud, hard and impatient. "...his eyeballs were being forced back into his head; his eardrums were being pushed deeper into his skull---"
"Amanda, do you love me?" Di interrupted.
"Just answer the question."
"Why are you asking me this?"
"Can you please just answer the question?" she practically whispered.
I felt my heart pounding. I sat up straight with the shock of her question. I didn't know what to say to her. I wanted to tell her I didn't give a damn for her but at the same time I wanted to surrender.
"Of course I do. I don't really know why but yes Di, of course I love you."
Okay so that was embarrassing.
"Can you I call you mine?"
"What?" I can't believe what I was hearing.
"Maybe this is the time I've been waiting for. Amanda, can you be my girlfriend?" Di asked me sweetly, very sincerely.
I threw the phone aside, grabbed my pillow and buried my face in it. I screamed so hard but very the pillow silenced me. I can feel the adrenaline rush and my brain split. I continued screaming with happiness and disbelief. I didn't get back on the phone. I knew Di was waiting (or probably was confused of my sudden absence) but I didn't care. All that mattered to me was the fact that Di asked me to be her girlfriend. I grabbed my pillow and started jumping on the bed. I am so restless and so full of energy that I had to let go of myself. I bit my pillow, continued to jump, buried my face in the pillow again then continued screaming.
Suddenly, the home phone rang. I ignored it until one of our maids told me that the call was for me. I was surprised to find out that it was Di.
"Hey what happened to you? I hung up and tried calling your cell phone again but it was still busy that's why I called here."
"Oh my God oh my God oh my God OH MY GOD!" I was walking up and about my room, picking stuff up and placing them back to where they once were. Di laughed at me.
That laugh… That sweet laugh. Awwwh.
"So…?" Di asked.
"Are you kidding me? Of course I'd be your girlfriend! It's just that, I can't believe it! Oh my God I really can't believe it Di. Kay said you never wanted to ask me out and all that and I was so mad at you and now and now and now…… Oh my God Di I love you so much. I can't believe it!"
I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't stop talking. Di laughed at the mention of Kay's name.
"Oh, Kay? Are you kidding me? I've been wanting you ever since but I never had the courage to ask you. I'm just a freshman, Amanda and you're a senior. But Kay encouraged me to do it. I owe it to her. I love you Amanda. You made everything perfect."
And she made my everything perfect too.
More chapters to go.