Broken

Why do you bring me love?

So silently…

Then take it away?

In a blink of an eye…

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Why did you make me so glad?

Then make me so sad?

/0/

I was falling for you,

Falling in love…

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But,

Love is stupid,

Love hurts.

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Love should never happen to me,

I want to be gray and old,

With no one to hold,

No one to kiss me at night,

No one to hold me tight,

Tell me everything's alright.

/0/

It's okay,

I'll do those things myself,

Like I did anyways,

Every night when I was hurting…

/0/

Silent tears,

Heartbroken songs of whisper,

Whispers of tiny, never-to-be-true hopes inside my warm comforting bed,

Cradling myself,

Because there's no one to hold me,

Eventually falling asleep,

Because I can't take it anymore,

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But,

When I get to sleep,

My dreams are swirls of unreasonable meaning,

Some give me hurt,

Some leave me questioning…

/0/

I don't need anybody,

Nobody to be there,

I want to be cold from lack of touch,

Lack of love,

Lack of what everyone else has,

Because it's my fate,

My destiny.

/0/

Oooh, baby,

Don't say you're sorry,

Because you're not,

You're trying to make me feel just a little better about myself.

/0/

Don't tell me I'm beautiful,

Or special,

(Yeah, I'm special alright.),

Because those are all just lies,

Just to make me feel better,

About myself.

/0/

Why did you introduce him into my life?

Bring me into this rush,

This rush,

Of me longing for more,

Despite what you want.

/0/

This little fragile,

Now broken heart,

Thinks that love should never happen for her again.

/0/

It just ends in heartbreak and tears,

Longing and fears.

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Things no one should ever have to feel,

But something I've felt twice before,

And I didn't think I'd have to experience this ache anymore,

But, I guess it's the kind of thing,

That I'm going to have for the rest of my life.

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Well, until I get over you,

Which will never go away,

Not this easily.

/0/

Despite what you say,

My heart is calling out for a suture,

Desiring to be fixed again,

But, at the same time,

I want to wallop in this grief,

Never go through remission,

Of this heartbroken love ballad,

That I'm now singing,

Mellowing melody,

Constantly,

Inside my head,

Thinking about you.

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Refusing to smile,

I'll make a fake one for you,

Just to make you think that I'm okay,

But,

My heart will still be broken.