no one knows him like you do.

no one watches his cigarette fingers,
pierce your flesh after school
or watches his lips touch you the wrong way
no one sees who he really is…

nobody knows how much silver
& expensive little gifts
arejusttheliesthatfoolyou
into thinking he's amazing.

your friends think that you are happy
& your smile keeps them fooled
they didn't know how your life was threatened
ifhissecretwastobedropped.

& you just tell them what you wish you felt:
inlove.atpeace.joyous.
but you refuse to tell him just how much
you really love him…

but their ignorance tells you
maybe it won't hurt so bad to say
iloveyou.

((only you know better than that.))