It was 1 in the morning, and I was laying in bed listening for the front door to open. I had nearly given up hope that I'd hear that sound tonight. Afterall, sometimes Chris didn't come home for days, once he was even gone a whole week. I sighed dejectedly and then jumped, because I had heard the front door open. I got out of bed and met Chris at the door. I was so excited to see him, but I tried to appear nonchallant.

"Hey," I said, working not to sound eager.

"Oh, hi Kria," Chris said distractedly. "Nice of you to wait up for me."

"Oh, I wasn't tired," I said, stifling a yawn.

"I kind of have something to talk to you about..." Chris trailed off. I was quite curious. What could he want to talk to me about?

"Um, what?" I asked, beginning grow a bit uneasy. Was something wrong?

"Well, I've been you remember Cee?" he asked hesitantly.

"Oh yeah, that tall, dark haired girl who came to all my birthday parties when I was younger?" I questioned.

"Yeah, her," Chris confirmed. Then he pointedly looked at the wall.

"Well, what about her? You guys getting married or something?" I asked sarcastically. A smile flickered across Chris' face. I lived for making him smile or laugh. But his face grew serious again quickly.

"Um, I think you're going to go live with her for a while. I hope that's okay."

I think my mouth dropped open. "Why?" is all I could say.

"Well, I've been very busy lately..."

I couldn't comprehend. He was giving me away? He liked Eli more than me? He...he didn't love me at all? He wanted to be rid of me... I was so hurt, so mad at Chris, at the world. Why is it always me? Does God hate me? My eyes filled with tears and my face twisted with anger. I looked down at my feet for a minute, waiting for the tears to clear.

Chris said uncertainly, "She says she'd love to have you, she said she could try you..."

I looked up at him, rage on my face. "I don't need help!" I shouted fiercely. He flinched a bit, like he thought I might hit him. I nearly did, I was so furious.

But then it melted away and I just felt helpless. Did Chris really think I could hit him? Sure, I got into fights a lot, but I couldn't hurt him. I loved him...didn't he know that? I stared at him, feeling like my soul had been killed.

"I, uh, I just thought it'd be a good change of pace for you for a while. I don't seem to be doing a good job as parental type. You fight with everyone, you hate your sister... Besides, I'm hardly ever home anymore. You'd like it better there. You'd make friends."

I smirked bitterly when he said that. I felt defeated. "Fine, whatever," I muttered. "It doesn't make a difference to me where I live. I hate this place anyway."

I stomped off to my room, looking back at him and saying, "I'll pack my stuff and you can take me there tomorrow." He looked sad, maybe hurt. I wanted to run to him and hug him, apologize and promise to be good from now on and beg him to let me stay.

Instead I gave him my practiced I-couldn't-care-less-about-you look and went into my room, slamming the door. I broke down into a fit of quiet tears, but then I stopped and just looked at the ceiling. Nobody would hurt me anymore. I planned not to care about anyone from now on. I felt calm hatred for Chris, Eli, Cee, and the rest of the world. I fell into a dreamless, feelingless sleep.