What am I doing to myself?

Trying to erase my existence?

That side of myself is eager and persistent.

The question is…

Am I only looking for a spotlight?

Am I looking for my hero?

Or am I just trying to prove that I am stronger

than the things out there and can protect myself?

Puke up the remorse

Relieve the bad memories with painkillers

There's no need to feel

Simply, there is no time to feel

Lie straight to your face

You say: how are you?

I say: fine.

But really, my head is about ready to split

I'm unsteady.

My feelings are unleveled.

I can be your friend or be your enemy in seconds

I'm breaking apart

My heart whimpers in a plead to stop

Take a higher dose

Forget and forget

My spine crimples and crumples

Appearances on the surface are so deceitful

Insides are where the truth is held

Sometimes I even fool myself that I'm okay

Continue to become a wreck

Just try to walk through the rumble

Please don't stumble

You don't want to be stuck in this mess with me