A Life in Between Here and Then

It's gone.

I can't do it anymore.

I try,

I try so hard,

But I can't seem to find it.

My train of though,

My concentration,

My thinking processes.

All of them are gone.

My mind,

That may be gone as well.

I can't think of anything.

I can't stick to one thought.

It's all clouded,

Going through all of my worries,

All of my dreams

Even my past experiences,

All at the same time.

Not one thing staying for long.

Not one thing leaving too late.

I'm tired of it.

Of not being able to think of anything.

Of only being able to think of everything.

I want to be able to think of you.

I need to keep one thought.

One that will keep me sane.

I can't drift in time,

Not being able to think,

Not able to feel time passing me by.

I can't stay this way forever.

Help me get away from this state,

This horrible numbness.

Help me think again.

11/22/07

Kourtney McCloskey