Chapter One: Erase

"I loved you." Her breath caught as she said it. As she sucked in a gust of air she could feel it; the anger, the despair, the pain of the truth. "It was worse because I knew that I never meant anything. Not a thing to you. But I still loved you. I'd always thought that maybe, if i tried hard enough, I'd become what you wanted and you'd be able to accept me. God I tried. Getting good grades wasn't enough, being the 'good girl' wasn't enough, trying to look the best wasn't enough. But I tried." Her vision was starting to get blurry by the tears she was holding back. She wouldn't satisfy him by letting the tears fall. "Did you know that on every birthday I sat in my room praying that you would call and at least remember? You did. Until I hit high school and then everything felt like it slipped away. You cut me off as if I meant nothing, even though I had nothing to do with the situation you were in. You cut me off without telling me why, without even saying good-bye. Well guess what? This girl has had it with people leaving her life. This time, I'm the one that's gonna leave. And when I do. I'm never ever looking back."

The man standing in front of her stood still. He hadn't spoken at all during her outburst and still stood silent as she met his gaze. Cold. She felt cold. She turned around, ready to leave when he finally spoke.

"You're right." he said. Just two words from him and it shattered her heart. Hearing the words from him cut her in more ways than she could have imagined. She turned back. For one last look at the man that she loved since childhood. Inside she wept. She wept for her mom. She wept for herself.

"Mom is dead. And so are you." And with that she left the building. Running through the rain, into her car, and out of his sight. She looked at the rearview mirror as she drove. That was the last time she saw her father, standing by the building, alone in the rain, bathed with darkness with only a twinkle of light from the midnight moon.

Authors NOTE: Well. I guess some of you might be wondering why I took the chapters down. Don't worry, my story didn't get plagiarized (at least I hope it hasn't been!), but I've just had no muse at all. So I've decided to take down all but the first chapter just so that I still have some contact with all the readers and reviewers. I'm so sorry, but I will certainly get this story done completely before posting again. It probably won't be until very much later, but fear not! I will get this story out if it's the last thing I do.

Yours,

Nina