How did I get back to this place

That I swore I'd never go back to,

The place where my smile is disfigured,

Where my eyes lose their twinkle,

Where my laugh is sucked out,

Where my voice turns quiet and hoarse

And my throat goes dry.

How did I get stuck back in this windowless room

That I can't find my way out of,

The room where my spirit dims,

Where I feel all alone,

Where my blood drips to the floor,

Where I curl into a ball in the corner

And just cry.

How do I ask for help

When my voice is lost,

When my eyes can't speak anymore,

When my spirit feels dead.

How do I get my happiness back?

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12/12/07