and I wonder where you were
when you left me in the dark
thinking only of the stars…
and your face

and I wonder where you are
as I look upon the cross
that you polished secrets
into for me.

do you know how much I died
when the rain fell down that night
do you know how much I shook
or do you care?

do you remember what you did for me
what you brought out of?
how you made me trust,
told me not to cry
said you'd be there,
it would be alright

now I look and see
you were the reason
for my tears.

and I wonder why I stayed
after what you put me through
but I blamed it on myself
did not see through
believed that you were true.

now I'm stronger,
now I'm wiser
more mature than I should be
for my age

holding hands and starlight nights
holding dreams with you in sight
was pointless

kissing on the rooftops
and jumping in the rain
should not have been wasted
on you.

and now I wonder why
I cared so much for you
and now I wonder why
why I loved you so

do you remember what you did for me
what you brought out of?
how you made me trust,
told me not cry
said you'd be there
it would be alright

and now I look and see
you were the reason
for my tears.