I just did
the plainly fucking stupidest thing
I've ever done in my life
and I (almost) feel good about it.
Fuck.
(There's something wrong with me.)
I didn't think of this as a fight
until she said it was.
Sad.
I hang on every word she says
while she's waiting for someone else's command.

a/n: I tried to feel love, not because I wanted to love her but because I was going mad.
-Blackwood Farm