I'm Strong but Not This Strong

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I met you a long time ago,

when I believed that love was sex and you were my love.

I learn things the hard way.

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There was eight months.

I forgot what it felt like to be yours.

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But like that perfect shot from a gun,

spattering blood like waves on sand,

you found me.

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Oh, it seemed too easy.

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Last night, when I stared Hennessy in the face and told you that I loved you,

last night I missed you.

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And shaking, I hallucinated that you were lying there

because you were going to gut me and leave me bleeding:

a fish cut and dry.

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You bite like you want to get the poison out of my veins but

I just can't stop drinking

and baby it's so hard

to swallow

sometimes, can you hear my breath echoing in the hollow of your throat?

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Three days and you'll be gone to fight someone else's war

and you'll still burn me up.

You've chained me up like a

dog tag.

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I used to believe that love was sex and you were my love.

Now I know better.

I believe that love is war and you'll always win it.

(Although I suspect we'll both be breathless.)

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AN : I'm in love with a marine. Three more days and he's gone. I'm a mess and the words can't fix it.