I can feel my voice tightening
and I can practically feel my skin blistering

and it's killing me knowing
that's it's not just the fact that I'm sick

(or that I've felt my skin blistering before)
that's making me feel this way.

It's everything else.

I hate myself.

a/n: I would put down some of the words I want to scream,
but I'm not really sure how to spell them.
I'm guessing one of them would be spelled something like
"GAHFUCKINGHELLHOWTHEFUCKISTHISHAPPENINGFUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUKILLMEIHATEMYSELF!"
...but I'm not really sure.