a/n: With the radio turned up so loud, no one hears you screamin'…

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I admit it.

I was scared.
I didn't know what to do.
(I still don't know what to do.)

I was mad.
I wasn't thinking.
(I can't think anymore.)

I'm going numb.
My mind is numb.
My entire body is numb.

I don't like it.
I don't like this helplessness
or this numbness.

In fact,
I hate it.
I fucking hate it.

But I think I hate myself more.

a/n: fuck you all, fuck this world, fuck everything that you stand for. don't belong, don't exist, don't give a shit, don't ever judge me.

a/n: I write a lot of 'I hate myself' lately, don't I? Guess that's what happens when life fucks you over.
First note from some Simple Plan song (Perfect, I think... don't remember).
Second note from Slipknot's "Surfacing."