one word→ heartbeats

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sometimes, when i'm alone, i start counting my heartbeats. i count how many times it beats in an hour, wondering if it's normal. if it's regular.

i count my heartbeats, wondering if it's (still) in sync with yours-like it is when we lay together, running our fingers through the hairs on our heads. like it is when we fall off the couch in a fit of laughter and love.

sometimes, when i'm alone, i wonder if you count your heartbeats, too. i wonder if you count anything, just to count, just to pass by time. i wonder if you ever miss me like the ache in my heart says i miss you, too.

i wonder if your heart aches, too, days on end, like mine.

i count my heartbeats, wondering if you count yours, thinking of my heart - thinking of me. just like i think of you.

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a/n: this is the start of a collection of drabble and prose dedicated to one person. this is not supposed to make sense, or be in any order.