I dreamt she died.
Over & over in my mind,
I said "Mom, please, slow down, Mommy please, slow down,"
but it couldn't save her.
I heard it so clearly.
The car went over the hill
& there was another right over the top.
The two collided,
& what in real life would have been a minor accident,
in my dream,
her car hit the other…
& for a split second,
I could see her body against the driver's seat,
& then
(I don't want to relive it)
it caught fire.
I heard my own voice
over & over; again & again
ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod
& finally, the nightmare ended.