pain

why

do i always

feel

as though i am

suffocating

why

cant i be

normal

and not have to hurt myself

to actually feel

why cant i stop

hurting myself

with the cool

teeth of my

blade

why

cant i go

two whole hours, minutes,

without slicing my arms wide

open

why

must i feel so

helpless, confused, scared, angered,

ashamed

all the time

and how

can i end this constant

pain

i always

feel

pain