the way i think

what makes a cutter

a cutter

and why do i

cut

why cant i

stop

and why cant i wake

up

from my

nightmares

i walk through my

life

every day

answering these

questions

every day

speaking my

answers

every day

a cutter

i am

because

i think that way

my mind runs

in one direction

its just

the way i think

i cant stop

because

i just cant

i am

addicted

to that blissful

high

i feel

from my self inflicted

pain

i like being in

control

of my

pain

it starts

when i want it

to

it ends

when i want it

to

its just

the way i think

and i cant

wake up

from the numbness

that fills

me

from my endless

pain

i wish i could

i try

but i cant

its just

the way i think.