Locked With My Crush
What have I done to deserve this?
Why does life hit me like this?
You may be wondering, "what's this guy's problem?" My problem is that I'm locked up with another guy on a classroom, and it's not any random guy. Is the guy who I have a crush on! Could it possibly be any worse?! I don't think so. Yes, I'm also a guy, and yes, I'm gay, bare with me!
This whole thing wouldn't have happened if I hadn't come to school today. It's Sunday, but I had to come and do a stupid test I needed to do; why? Because I was absent the day everyone did it. That's why I hate being in high school; teachers don't care if you have plans; what they say is the final word, ALWAYS. Glad I'll be going out of this place this year. Only three months missing…! Okay, going back to how I got locked up, this is what happened:
I had just finished my test and was making my way to the door when I suddenly heard footsteps behind me.
"Blaze, wait up!" I heard; uh, oh. Recognizing who was the owner of the voice, I began walking faster, trying to leave him behind. Suddenly my wrist was grabbed and I was pushed against a wall. "What's wrong, Blaze? Why did you run away from me?"
"Let me go, Shaun!" I demanded. Shaun is the name of the bully who was in front of me. He's an idiot, and as you may have seen, he loves making my life miserable because he knows I'm gay. The worst part of this? He is one, too.
"Aw, why all the anger? I just wanted to play a little bit with you," he said caressing my cheek with his knuckles. I slapped his hand away and he frowned. "Well, if you're gonna be so hard…" Shaun put both of his arms across my chest so I couldn't escape and pasted his forehead to mine, causing me to groan in pain. Afraid of what would happen, I closed my eyes when I felt his breath hovering above my lips. And then our faces were mere inches apart…
I heard a loud bang and a thud soon afterwards. I opened my eyes and stared at Shaun, who was on the ground. When he stood up, his nose was bleeding.
"What the hell?! Joshua, you fucking broke my nose!" he shouted. I turned around and saw Joshua; my crush, the guy I said before… He turned to me.
"You all right, Blaze?" he asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine, thanks." Then Shaun pushed us both into a classroom and closed the door. Joshua tried to open it, but the doorknob didn't turn.
"Shaun, open the damn door!" he yelled.
"Sorry, but I have to go. Have fun in there, you two!" said the bully before leaving.
"Shaun, come back here! SHAUN! Ugh, damn it!" cursed Joshua hitting fiercely the door. I put a hand on his shoulder.
"Joshua, calm down," I told him. "You have to relax. There are some teachers still here; one must hear us sometime." He sighed and nodded, sitting with his back rested on the wall and his knees drawn up. I smiled and sat next to him. He suddenly looked at me and smiled back. Luckily he didn't see when I blushed.
(End of Flashback)
Yup, that's what happened about 10 minutes ago, but that time has seemed like an eternity to me.
"What does he have against you?" I lift my head and turn to see Joshua who keeps smiling gently. "Why does he only pick on you? Are you his favorite?"
"Because he's a bastard, that's why," I say simply. "What was he doing here, anyway?"
"He had the same reason to come that you had," he answers.
"And what were you doing here?"
"Someone did a donation for the chemistry laboratory, and the principal told me to take the boxes with the stuff to the lab," replies the older one. "I was about to leave when I saw him picking on you." I stay quiet for a moment.
"He was about to kiss me," I tell him with tears forming on my eyes. "What the fuck is his problem?! Being gay is not a reason to pick on other guys just like that!" I cry even harder when I realize what I just said. All of a sudden, my crush wraps an arm around my shoulders.
"You're not the only one." I gasp, looking at him. "Yes, I'm gay too, and a proud one!"
"Really?" He nods and I chuckle. "Wow, never expected it from someone like you." Now Joshua chuckles, and I love how it sounds. He then wipes my tears.
"You know what? I'd like to know about you, Blaze."
"Um, okay, let me start," he says, "I'm 18 years old, I live alone on an apartment, I have an older brother who sometimes visits me… what else? I like music a lot, I've never tasted Chinese food, and my favorite color is red."
"Oh, um, all right. I'm also 17 years old; going 18 in two and a half months; I live with my father since he's the only family I have left, I like listening to music once in a while, I love Chinese food and blue is my favorite color," I reply. "I plan to move somewhere else when we graduate this year." Joshua makes a look that asks "what are you talking about?" and I answer. "My father and I don't have a good relationship, and he can get to the point of hitting me when he's really angry."
"I'm sorry for that," he apologizes. "But if you need somewhere to stay, my apartment will always be open for you." I look at him surprised. "We're friends after all! That's what friends do for each other!" I give him a "thanks" look.
"Hey, is someone in there?!" We both gasp. Joshua quickly stands up and I do also. He yells.
"Yeah! We got locked up here!" The door opens and a teacher stares at us.
"You were lucky I heard you." The taller boy and I thank him and we get out of the school running.
"Hey, want me to walk you home?"
"N- No, thanks," I say. "I really appreciate it, but I can't. Thanks anyway!" With that I run back home, hoping my father is not there. Miraculously, he isn't. I go to my room and lay on my bed, falling asleep not too late after.
The next day I go downstairs, ready to leave for school. I suddenly hear my father's voice, and before he can see me, I get out.
When I get to school, I start looking for Joshua to thank him. I don't know why, I just want to. But I have no luck for the first three periods of five. After recess, I keep trying, still not finding him. The last bell rings and I haven't found him yet. Oh, well. I start making my way out and out of nowhere I am pulled into another classroom before my body is pressed against one of the walls.
"What's your problem, Shaun?! Let me go!" I yell to the stupid bully in front of me. Shaun looks at me fiercely.
"I've been waiting too damn long…" Before I can reply, he leans forward and smashes his lips against mine.
What – the – fucking – HELL?!
I manage to separate myself from him.
"What the hell is wrong with you?!" He doesn't say anything, just kisses me again, this time forcing his tongue into my mouth. Since I can't escape again, I lift one of my knees and hit him on the stomach. He pulls apart and spits a bit of blood. I take this chance and run out of the building, yet I keep hearing footsteps behind me.
Turning around in an alley, I realize it's a dead end. I try to find another way out but Shaun reaches up to me and grabs my head, pasting my body to the wall and kissing me savagely and biting my lower lip so hard it leaves a mark. His tongue enters my mouth and I can't do anything; his knees are pushing mine so I don't try what I did before. Our foreheads are crushed against each other's so I basically can't move. Shaun's hands lower down to my waist, making their way up again underneath my shirt. I do an effort to slap them away but my arms are paralyzed. He separates his mouth from mine and starts biting my neck at the same time his hands begin ripping up the fabric.
"Shaun, wait, stop it!" I shout, tears streaming down my face. The bully kisses me again, licking roughly my lips. "Please, just stop it!"
"Beg me, Blaze." Another kiss.
"I beg you to stop! Please, Shaun, I'm begging!" He smirks.
"You're pathetic." Shaun finishes ripping up my shirt, leaving my chest completely bare.
"SHUT UP! Shut the fucking hell up and stop struggling!" he screams. On an instant I stop. I just stay there; with my eyes tightly shut and tears coming out of them; being unable to make even the smallest movement. "That's better," he says, caressing my lips with his tongue and not losing any time on undoing the belt on my pants. "That's better…"
"Shaun, leave him alone!" I hear while the bully's body is separated from mine. My eyes widen and I see Joshua hitting Shaun, who spits blood as he fights my crush back. I cover my eyes with my hands and slid down to the floor, not wanting to see anything. When the sounds stop, I remove my hands from my eyes, seeing Shaun unconscious and Joshua panting. He turns to me and helps me to stand up. What a shame. All of a sudden he wraps his arms around me, one of them rubbing my back in circles. I tightly press my face against his chest, crying and trembling uncontrollably.
"J- Joshua…" I murmur.
"Shh. It's okay, Blaze, it's okay," he whispers, wiping the tears from my eyes. I feel something warm around my shoulders and notice that he just put a jacket over them. "Come on, I'll take you home."
"No!" I yell. "Please, no, don't take me home. Father will see me like this and he'll get upset and…" I hug him. "I know what he's able to do." Joshua hugs me back and we start walking. I don't know where we're going because I'm staring at the ground, and then we suddenly stop. I look up and see a small building. "W- Where are we?"
"My apartment," he answers, opening the small door. We enter and I look around; the little cottage has two rooms counting the living room with a TV and a couch; the other one having a bed and a wardrobe; and a kitchen with a refrigerator and a table. "Sorry if it's not what you were expecting, but it's the best place I could buy by my own."
"You gotta be kidding; this place is awesome," I assure him. "I'm sure it's more comfortable than being in my house." Out of nowhere, he comes behind me and wraps his left arm around my waist and the right one around my chest; his forehead against the back of my head.
"How do you feel?"
"My whole body is actually really sore right now and I feel my lips broken." Joshua lifts his right hand towards my mouth and starts to caress the bite mark on my lower lip softly with his fingertips. "T- Thanks for saving me."
"You should stay with me," he says. "We don't know what Shaun can be willing to do."
"I don't want to be a bother to you."
"Blaze, you'll never be a bother to me. I told you that my apartment would always be open for you," he declares, continuing his caressing. "Are you tired?" I nod and feel him smile. "Then sleep with me." I gasp and blush slightly. "No, you're not gonna go into the couch, okay? You'll sleep with me in my bed."
"O- Okay," I find myself saying. Joshua leads me towards the bed of his room and takes out a buttoned shirt from the wardrobe. He gives it to me and I mumble a "thank you" just remembering that Shaun ripped out the one I was wearing. After putting it on, nervous and carefully, I lay down on the mattress and he does next to me. Blushing, I turn around so he's staring at my back. The older boy chuckles and covers us both with a blanket, his arms surrounding my waist to pull me closer. I smile weakly and close my eyes, falling asleep into his embrace.
While I'm asleep, I dream of the first time I saw Joshua, three years ago when I recently entered high school.
I was the new one. Everyone knew me as the shy stupid and little boy that never talked to anyone. Nobody wanted to be friends with me, and I was the primary victim of the bullies' jokes, especially Shaun's. I never actually stood up to them; five tough boys against one; I wouldn't risk myself like that. I was most of the time silent and didn't say a word up to the point the whole school thought I was mute. But I didn't ever care.
One day, when I was walking next to Shaun's group of bullies, he put his foot on my way and I tripped with him. Just as I was about to crash onto the ground, a pair of arms grabbed my body. I looked up to the owner of the arms and saw the kindest smile I'd ever seen in my life.
"You okay?" I nodded, unable to get my eyes off from that smile. "You're the new one, right? My name's Joshua," he said.
"I- I'm B- Blaze," I responded weakly, separating myself from him. Joshua turned his face at Shaun and frowned fiercely. Said guy turned around and walked away with his group. "T- Thanks for c- catching me."
"Well, what do you know? You're not mute after all." I blushed slightly and looked at a different place. "Sorry, but it's the first time I've heard you talk."
"N- No, I… I guess it- it's okay." He smiled again and left. After that he began to "appear" when I most needed him, those times being when Shaun and his bullies bothered me. They left him and he stayed by himself, and when he discovered I was gay, the jokes and bothers increased, but Joshua was always there to defend and protect me. I knew then that I had a crush on him.
When I wake up, I find myself and Joshua in a sitting position, still in his bed and his arms still around me. Our foreheads are touching and his eyes are closed. He realizes I'm awake and opens them.
"Blaze?" he starts.
"Can I kiss you?" The question catches me off guard, but before I can give him an answer, he lifts my chin with his hand and softly presses his lips to mine. The kiss is brief as he pulls away soon afterwards. "Sorry," he giggles, "but I couldn't help it."
"Why did you do that?" I ask.
"Because," says Joshua, "I wanted to know what your lips tasted like."
"That's a lame answer."
"And, because I love you." I gasp and stare at him in disbelief.
"Y- You do?" He nods. "But why?"
"After we met, I started observing you… studying you to know what you were like, and I found out you're smart, kind-hearted, sweet, cute, and maybe a bit shy. I don't know why, but I fell in love with you, and the idea of having you here with me makes me the happiest man alive."
"Joshua," I say, "can you… kiss me again?" His eyes widen a little bit, maybe for surprise, but he smiles and then our eyelids give in when our lips meet. His arms lower down until they're wrapped around my waist and mine encircle his neck. He softly runs his tongue across my upper lip and I shiver pleasurably, granting him entrance to my mouth, which he takes full advantage of. Soon our lungs need air and we must pull apart from each other. He smiles and I smile back.
"I assume my feelings for you were returned since the beginning," he murmurs. My smile widens and he presses soft kisses on the bite marks of my lower lip and neck. "That bastard, what did he do to you?" I frown and tears start forming at the edge of my eyes.
"He tried to rape me," I mumble. "If you hadn't gotten there when you did… I don't want to imagine what could have happened!" I pull him closer, hugging him tightly, the water drops soaking his shirt. He returns my embrace, caressing my hair.
"That doesn't matter anymore," replies Joshua. "What matters is that you're with me now and I won't ever let that fucking bastard get near you again." We separate a little bit from each other and he kisses me one more time.
"Can I tell you something?"
"You're a hell of a better kisser than him." He giggles, planting a chaste kiss on my lips. "I love you, Joshua."
"I love you too, Blaze."
We didn't go to school for the next two weeks, and I obviously didn't go back home. On the next Monday, when we enter the building, our fingers are intertwined and everyone gives us evil glares and start murmuring. I snuggle closer to Joshua, afraid of what could happen if I get away from him. He grabs my other hand so we're face to face.
"Remember this, Blaze; I won't ever let someone hurt you again," he whispers and softly kisses me. Two months and a half later, we graduate from high school and move to a bigger apartment. The good news about this are that we haven't known anything about Shaun after the day when I moved with Joshua. The best news are that now we're together and will always be since we decide to go to the same college. I guess that being locked with my crush on high school wasn't so bad after all, because now I can spend the rest of my life with the person whom my heart belongs to. Oh, I really love happy endings.
(A/N: Hey there, guys! I hoped you liked my new one shot! Did you? Did you hate it, didn't care? Please leave a review!! I'd had this idea from a while ago and I just HAD to write it down)