This Is The Most Fun I've Had In Ages

by, Cassandra

"Put up your hands, let's start this dance.
This painful ballad filled with tears and longing.

This painting left unfinished, this story left unread."
Dear god, we've gone and done it all over again.
She says this isn't a game, but I disagree.
This is the most fun I've had in ages.

I love watching the shock scream across their faces.
I love the looks and the not-so subtle whispers.
Oh, if they only knew… if you only knew.
This is nothing like it comes across,
But I won't correct your assumptions.
This is the most fun I've had in ages.

"So leave the pain behind, buried in the past.
Things will get better, friend, just give it time.
There's always, always a hand there to hold.
"
Things only got worse, but I won't complain.
She says this isn't a joke, but I disagree.
This is the most fun I've had in ages.

Call me crazy, because that's exactly what I am.
I prefer "unique", but it's all the same to me.
Baby, you don't have to look so surprised.
I mean, it's not like I ever really lied.
I'm a storyteller, lovely darling,
And this is the most fun I've had in ages.

"There's more to life then this, you know.
There's more then even you can dream.
Just look beyond what you can see.
"
Can't you see the laughter in these eyes?
She says this isn't the end, and I agree.
This is the most fun I've had in ages.

(But everything eventually has to end. Everything dies, leaves, fades, burns, gives up and flies away on the wings I worked so hard to give to them. What about me? Yes, I'm selfish, but I couldn't care less. I want to know where all this leaving leaves me. When everyone's gone, what's left for me? Who's there to hold me, love me, need me, give me, know me, hear me, see me? Who's there? Because I'm sick of being left behind. I tired of being forgotten. I'm through with being ignored, but it's hard to get the attention I deserve when no one even sees me to begin with.)

Oh, yeah, baby.
This is the most fun I've had in ages.