My heart is racing. My pulse pounding in my ears. My breathing is shallow and rapid. My hands are cold and shaking.
Something is really wrong with me. I can't think straight, my mind is clouded over.
"What is it child?" my demon shadow whispers in my ear.
"I don't…I don't know. I don't feel right at all," I replied.
"I know. I can feel it too child. What troubles you troubles me as well," he told me. "You need to calm down soon. Your heart rate is too fast. You're going to be in serious trouble if you don't."
"I know I know," I replied. I sat down on my floor and put my head between my knees. In seconds I felt something cold on the back of my neck.
Not moving I asked, "What is that?"
"My hand, I can change my body temperature at will. This might help you."
"Okay," my voice was barely a whisper.
My shadow and I stayed like that for what felt like forever. Eventually my breathing became even. My heart rate slowed down, back to normal.
I lifted my head slowly and was greeted by my shadow in his human form. His bright crimson eyes looked at me in concern. I'd only seen him like this one other time. The day at the cliff.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
"Yeah I think so."
"What was that about child?"
"I really don't know. All of the sudden it was like I just panicked for no reason," I told him.
"Have you ever had a panic attack?" he asked me.
"I don't think so."
"I think you just did child."
"Oh…. Shadow you can call me Mai if you would like to," I tell him.
"Mai," he says trying out my name.
"Do you have a name Shadow?" I ask.
He looks at me as though he's deciding if he can trust me or not. It's almost as if he's looking into my mind and my heart.
"Aiden," he says.
I was quiet for a moment. Mulling it over in my mind. "I like it," I tell him, "It suits you well."
"Of course it does. Demons aren't just given random names. The name they have has a specific meaning for them," he tells me.
"Yours means 'little fire' doesn't it?" I ask honestly curious to learn more about my ever-present shadow.
"Yes. It does," he says. His eyes are sad when he tells me this. Like it brings back something bad.
I wait for a moment before I ask my next question. "Why were you named Aiden?"
He looks at me again.
Studying what he sees in my eyes and in my heart and mind. "Not
right now Mai. It's late. I will tell you some other time."
I frown but I don't push him. "Okay."
Feeling suddenly sleepy I crawled over to my bed and worked my way under my covers. For a while I just sat there looking at Aiden.
He was handsome for a demon. His shaggy hair shined when the light hit it the right way. His features were perfect and straight. If it weren't for his eyes and his horns he could be mistaken for a human. A human I could fall for.
'No I can't think like that!'
'Why not? He is really good looking.'
'He's a demon. Besides he wouldn't like me anyway.'
"What are you thinking about Mai?" Aiden ask me.
I jumped. I had almost forgotten he was right there. "Oh it's nothing."
"Mk," he tells me.
"I'm going to bed I'm tired," I tell him.
"Will you stay with me tonight?" I ask him.
"I am always with you," he says sounding slightly confused.
"I mean…will you stay in your human form…please?" I ask feeling my cheeks turn red.
I think I shocked him because he didn't say anything for a few minutes.
"Oh…Yes. For you I will," he tells me. He walks over and sits on the edge of my bed. "You want the comfort don't you?" he asks.
I nod my head, my eyes already closed. I fall asleep, my demon shadow Aiden next to me. Always watching me. Always waiting for the time to step in and leave his mark.