i cried for hours.
i know exactly why.
i just can't put it into words.

she asked me what i was doing.
"changing the song," i replied,
feeling my voice catch.

did she know that i was crying?
could she hear it my voice?
maybe the others could.

"why?" she asked.
"because i have to," i shot back,
feeling it building up inside of me.

i cried
and i cried
… and i cried.

i fell asleep hugging his hoodie tightly
and wondering why i couldn't be hugging him
all night long.

i don't know what to say.
i just don't know now.

a/n: Funny how they do the same thing every time I'm crying - they ignore me.