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Don't you know the meaning of 'I love You'? It means, I love you, I simply love you.

Don't you know the meaning of 'I love You'? It means, my heart is longing for you.

Don't you know the meaning of 'I love You'? It means, no matter what, I really want you.

Don't you know the meaning of 'I love You'? It means, regardless of everything,

I will always love you.

But, why this kind of love does really exist? I don't even know.

CHAPTER 4 : FRAGILE

It was so cold. Why it's so cold? Can't somebody give me a blanket to cover me? I'm cold. I can't take myself anymore. As something was awakening me, I opened my eyes straightly. Where am I? My eyes were immediately observing for the space I was laying on. Laying? I got myself up slowly while enduring the pain on my back

"Oh, gosh!" I suddenly held my waist, "Damn! It's hurt!" I kept whimpering, "What the…-" My words were stopped as I remembered for what I've had done several hours ago.

No way! I cursed myself. Don't tell me that we really did it! Me and Ren?!! I shook my head like crazy. I looked around and found myself in a super dark-big room with no one was here. My hand unconsciously touched the soft chiffon beneath me and suddenly realized where I was about; gosh! What a luxury bed!

I kept looking around while I was sitting on the bed. It was a neat room; I tried to figure out the room's situation more within the dark. I was trying to move myself but suddenly I felt my body was about to break. Man, I'm in a big trouble.

For the first time I was aware of myself that I only wore pants that wasn't mine. No shirt at all, no doubt that I've had been feeling so cold in this full-AC room. I pulled out the bed's sheet to cover my body and tried to retrieve my remaining power for I could seriously get up from this deserted room.

I headed toward the door's room and grabbed the handle, slowly opened the door while keeping myself aware of this awkward surrounding. I followed the corridor and finally reached the room that I've had been so familiar with; Ren's living room. So, I was still in that guy's penthouse after all.

But why it was so quiet? Where's Ren? The lamp was turned on but there was even no one here.

"Ren?" I looked around searching for his trace, but there was no answer. I felt suddenly eerie of my current state. Was I alone? Here? In someone's penthouse? My attention then was caught by a pile of something which were located on the couch - where we did that whole 'scenes' (I was too embarrassed to recall it, ugh!). I slowly aimed for that thing and tried to analyze what it was. I unconsciously simpered. Well, it was my clothes as I took it and felt that it was fully cleaned. Once I looked at the table, both of our glasses of wine weren't even there anymore. Ren had cleaned it? What a good guy. I felt relieved somehow.

Relieved? So where's that guy now? Would a good guy leave his partner after they did it? Wait! Partner? You didn't mean that he and I is a…-? No way! I kept looking around, tried to disperse all my foolish thoughts, but there was no sound or even Ren's remnant here.

"Didn't he worry that I'm going to rob his things?!" I began to scream, throwing all of my nervousness, "REN?!" I still tried to search him and walk around his every side of room. But empty.

"Okay, if that's what you WANT! I'm leaving now, okay!" I screamed hoping that he would appear somehow from whichever side. I began to wear all of my clothes while still looking everywhere (I really didn't believe that Ren would leave me! And right after he took my…- DAMN! I still can't believe we really did it! What a loser!).

"S-s-so," I still desperately looking around before I realized it's truly pointless that Ren surely wasn't here, "I put the money here," Then I placed some of my money there (Dang! That was my birthday's gift from my beloved mother! And I thought that I was going to use the money to buy the latest Xbox!), "Well, I really don't know how much I should pay you, bu-but, this is all what I've got in me right now and I'm sure it's quiet enough for – what – we've – d-d-done…-" I slowly stepped ahead toward the door, "You still remember my house, right?" I was ready to open the door and walked out, "You can ask for the rest," I stuttered.

The door was locked but simply the key was attached there so I could easily open it and walked out through the door. But, what should I do with this damn penthouse? I sighed as directly took the penthouse's key with me and locked it from the outside. I don't care if you couldn't even enter your room Ren! It's all your fault if you have to spend your night laying on the street, homeless (even though you still inside the room I bet you can't go anywhere!) or if you still have some guts then visit me!

00oooooooooo00

"Aa-chan! There's a phone call," What's again?! I squirmed restlessly, "Aa-chan, are you weak up yet?" That's my mom! I opened my eyes and found my mother had stood up beautifully aside my rooms' door.

"Mom?" I answered her lazily.

"It's Yuura," She walked toward my bed and gave the wireless phone to me. She brushed my hair while leaving my room as I got the phone.

"WHAT A HELL! You're such a lil shit of brat! Where were you last night, huh? Fag?!" Yuura was swearing over the telephone.

Oh, Sh-t! I forgot about Yuura and others after last night! I directly went home from Ren's penthouse, it was already 3 PM or so that I didn't even remember that I was with Yuura. And now, for the continuation, I completely overslept and didn't even attend school, what a mess!

"Oh.. Wait, okay, easy," I scratched my head, tried gaining my conscious, still closing my eyes while hearing Yuura kept yelling on me.

"-… And you left us while we've had come for trouble preparing you that greatest birthday's party ever?! Your such a low!" Greatest party?! You've gotta be joking, huh?

"Well, I didn't mean to…" I tried to make some excuses, but still, how would I let him know about what had just happened last night?

"Just say it if you don't like partying with chicks, karaoke-ing, spending time with your very best fellas, you shouldn't just go and leave us behind for…-"

"Can't you just SHUT up for a while?! Listen, I've just done my very first one-night-stand, just like what you said!"

I can't believe it. I really said that!

00oooooooooo00

"I really can't believe that you would spend your night here, my dear," A soft hand was caressing Ren's hair, greeting him a good morning while he still on the bed, covered with an expensive satin sheet, topless, revealing his broad-white chest.

Ren slowly opened his eyes avoiding the direct sunlight which was penetrating the curtain inside his bed, he murmured for something, "I didn't mean to visit you either,"

The woman chuckled hearing Ren was pouting as if she had been used with the guy's attitude, "Well, it's then lucky for me, since you've never visited me for these past 3 years,"

"Lucky, huh?" Ren closed his eyes again and smirked, "Shouldn't I say that I even luckier…-" He wiped off the woman's hand and began to continue his sleep.

"How rude," The woman sulked, "Luckier, huh?"

To be continue