you
were looking into our future
seeing
how this would end up
if
we were together.
looking
for predictability, i guess,
because
when you looked,
you
saw something
and
you ran.
when
you look at her,
there
was nothing there.
you
don't know what next year,
next
decade,
will
look like with her.
you
need that, i guess.
that
secure insecurity
that
says
"this
could end,
and
i would never
worry,
'but what if..?'"
because
you never made any
"what
if'"s
with
her.
with
me, you knew how it would work.
i
would make more money,
we
would have kids,
live
in a pretty house
until
we retired
somewhere
warm
and
bought a few cats.
with
her, you don't know any of that.
maybe
you would make more money,
maybe
you wouldn't have kids,
maybe
you'd live in an apartment
til you were 90.
you're not at the
stage
where you want a future.
you're scared because
with me,
you'd have one.