WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD

I slowly trudged up the stairs one hand weighed down by a small radio and in the other a long, cold, knife

---"He was chasing me I ran out of the house I had seen what he did to my mom, the blood everywhere. I ran blindly through the streets not thinking to scream or call for help then I heard it the roar of the engine I recognized it almost immediately it was him, he had found me. ----

I opened the closet door and stepped into my sanctuary, it was a walk in closet with a door and lock so whenever I wanted or needed to be alone this was the one place I could count on. I placed the radio on the floor and put the knife on top of it with a soft metallic clink I turned, locked the door then took a seat by the radio

---Before I knew it I was back at home (if that's what you want to call it) he was beating me but not with his hands, no, he was using his baseball bat. I tried hard not to cry but the pain was unbearable "thwack...thwack...thwack..." then it stopped I took a chance and looked up he was holding something it was small and the handle was blue, it looked like some sort of blade but it was curved instead of straight like someone had bent it "see this" he said "this is deaths tool and your going to get a little taste of what death feels like"---

I looked at the knife on the radio the small amount of light illuminating it in the darkness, I wrapped my hand around the handle and picked it up, I stared admiringly. The blade looked sharp so I turned my left hand palm up and put the tip of the knife at my wrist barely pressing down, a small drop of blood leaked out, I drew in a breath as the small amount of liquid pooled then slowly trickled down the side. The blade glinted in the light as I slowly drew the blade up my arm.

There was a thin line of blood as I moved the blade up I pushed down a little harder as the blade passed halfway up my arm and stopped at the joint, I stared at my arm in wonder as the blood came out freely. I did the same to the other arm as I watched, entranced. I put the blade down, the tip was stained with blood made cool by the metal, put my head back and switched on the radio I had put my moms favorite cassette in, I wanted to hear her favorite song one last time.

I loved my mom just like everyone else loves a family member; I had told her that I would never know what true love would feel like. I yearned for the feeling from another she told me that one day I would know, I was young I had all my life to find out. If today went as planned I would be with her again

---He brought the blade down to my arm "mom...mom...mom..." my voice was hoarse the panic rising in me i started sobbing as I felt the penetration of the blade. He pushed down hard and the blade went in deep the pain came in waves traveling up my arm, I almost passed out. After the third time everything went dark I had passed out .I awoke later in the darkness of the basement there was only a small amount of light in the room but it illuminated enough for me to see. I was curled into a ball and I felt the cold wetness on my arm and legs. I tried to move and a throbbing pain shot throughout my entire body and the memories of the previous day came at me like a wave "mom" my voice was still hoarse and it came out as a whisper I fell asleep to the pain of the bruises and deep cuts but most of all the pain of having lost my mom to him and not being able to do anything about it. ---

I sang along to the words as the memory passed through my mind "i see trees of green, red roses too, i see them bloom from in you, and i think to myself what a wonderful world"...

--------"RYAN!" a smile tugged at my lips as i recognized the voice i felta pair of arms circling my waist and i was pulled into his body. "you know the usual response after someone screams your name is good morning, good afternoon, good evening or just hi" i turned my head "good..." i couldnt finish what i was going to say as warm lips met mine. there was a fluttery feeling in my stomach and then it ended "jess your suppose to let people finish before..."his lips attacked mine again muffling what i wanted to say then he pulled back for the second time he was laughing softly and i was smirking like an idiot "anything else" he said. I smacked him lightly and he tackled me to the ground, we rolled around on the grass and came to a stop lying side by side i felt as jess laid his head on my chest "i love you jess" i felt as he smiled he moved up and lightly kissed me"i love you even more"------

Tears welled in my eyes as i remember the last memory i would have of the last precious person in this world to me. the last bit of the song played "and i think to myself...what a wonderful world, yes i think to myself...what a wonderful world." i closed my eyes because i felt so tired and dizzy there was blood pooling around my arms"i chuckeld lightly "what a wonderful world" i leaned my head back and waited to be swept into the darkness.

Ok, so i previously had this story posted under a different name and it was all bunched up and almost impossible to read, so i deleted it, made some necassary changes, and now i'm posting it under this account. I hope you guys enjoy it.