It gets harder to get up each morning

It gets harder to move my feet

It gets harder to speak those words

It gets harder to even breathe


I don't know how much I can do this

I don't know how much more I can take

The pain is overwhelming me

The tears are making it hard to see


Soon I know I'll falter

Soon I know ill fall

Soon I know it will all be too much

Soon I won't get up at all


How do I deal with this?

How do I deal with loosing everything?

How do I deal with loosing you?


I'm crying

I'm shaking

I'm screaming in my own head


I hate myself for what I did

I hate myself for how I feel

I hate myself for everything that happened

I hate myself for making my nightmare real


I wish you'd come back

I wish you'd understand

I wish you weren't so mad

I wish you would just talk to me


It is so hard living without you now

Its so hard being alone

Its so hard living with what I did

Its so hard having no one to understand


Its just become too hard right now.